Saturday, April 11, 2020

NaPoWriMo 2020 Catch-Up Day 10 + April PAD Challenge 2020 Catch-Up Day 10: The Word That Destroys

say it's
just a word

it's a 
word that destroys

don't need
to say it

do you
gain from it

your hateful
thoughts to yourself

maybe the
problem is you


NaPoWriMo: Write a Hay(na)ku

April PAD Challenge: Write a the (blank) that (blanked) poem. 


  1. Sticks and stone will break my bones, but words will never hurt me is unmitigated bullshit. Most of us have been scarred by words, and those scars open and fester far too easily.

    1. I was thinking about the fact that every fucking time I have to check in for a doctor's appointment, I have to see a certain fucking word right at the top of my chart. My PA has always been respectful. She never drags me about my size. But that word reminds me that I'm seen as sub-human. It really does a number on my mental health (not to mention the struggle with my eating disorder) every time I have to see it.
      "Obese" is not a benign word. It's an ugly, hateful word. I can't imagine that someone would want to see "retard" or "moron" or "nut case" on their chart, and nor should they ever have to. Shame is a very poor basis for health care.
      The diagnosis I think should be front and center on my chart is diabetes, because that's the condition that's most likely to end me. But where does diabetes (which I think should be called hypopancreatism) appear on my chart? Fucking nowhere! True story. The diagnosis is "obesity with serious co-morbidity." What the fucking fuck does that even amount to?
      It reminds me of being diagnosed as a hysterical neurotic when I was 16 years old and tried to off myself because I was being bullied. Fucking pile of Freudian bullshit. I was actually struggling with PTSD, not to mention bipolar disorder. Fuckwits didn't get any of it right until I was nearly 40 years old. And then they wonder why people avoid them like the plague.

    2. "Obesity with serious co-morbidity" translates to "fat person with diabetes," at least in this case. So, why the hell not just say diabetes? People of all sizes get the disease. In fact, when I was working in long-term care, the majority of patients who had diabetes were average size, neither extremely thin nor markedly heavy. This isn't because there are no fat old people. There are plenty of fat old people, and they are no more likely to be severely compromised than old people of any other size. I am sick and fucking tired of "fat" being considered a shameful attribute. People really need to fuck off and then when they think they can't fuck off any more, they can keep fucking off anyway.


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