Friday, December 30, 2016

Fan Fiction Support: Frozen AU Fan Made Videos

This set of fan-made videos is a "Frozen" AU where Elsa starts a job babysitting for a young boy named Jamie, and the boy's older brother, Jack, becomes enamored with Elsa.
The videos are not professional quality and the story line reflects the youth of the creator. However, we fully support the creation of such stories, whether or not they lead to "real" writing. They are real writing and stand on their own merit.
Fan fiction is not lesser writing. It is real writing. 
These fan-made videos are enjoyable to watch, and we hope the creator continues to express herself through the worlds she finds enjoyable, whether those worlds are of her own making or were originally created by others.

Cie and Wanda
Team Netherworld
Crazy Creatives Cheerleading Camp

Saturday, December 3, 2016

Fan Fiction: We Writes It


Written by Blooming Psycho, posted on our now defunct Wordpress blog.

The topic of anti-fan fiction snobbery is actually covered far better than I can do in these posts: This is an excellent blog, and I highly recommend it, although the author of the blog makes me super duper uber jealous with their big brain and sleek, sensible writing style! 
 We of Team Netherworld have run onto anti-fan fiction snobbery on more than one occasion. What we write both is and isn't fan fiction. We do use borrowed characters and borrowed universes. We create our own characters which belong with those characters. We use characters like Dr. Who and Harry Potter, who can pretty much dance in and out of any multiverse. 
 Why do we do this? The reason is simple. BECAUSE WE LIKE IT! 
 We don't think that anything we write is going to sell and be turned into a book or movie. Anyone who saw said book or movie would be saying "what nut wrote this?" 
The answer is a resounding TEAM NETHERWORLD! But you won't ever see that happening. Why? Because that's not what we're about. 
 We're about having fun, but we find ourselves constantly having to defend our right to do so. It's like we've got to fight for our right to party. This is ridiculous, given the fact that everyone involved in this blog graduated high school an average of 25 plus years ago.
 Prior to creating the (now mostly defunct) Undead in the Netherworld blog, The Cheesy One was advised that if she would stop writing "shell characters," her writing would be more interesting. The person delivering this criticism went on to say that psychologically wounded people often choose to write "shell characters" in an attempt to fill in the missing parts of their personality. 
In other words, if one is ever to become a "real" writer, one must not write fan fiction. This person did not take into account the fact that our sometimes not so fearless leader was having a psychological breakdown, and that anything she could do to keep herself from landing firmly in the pit was a positive. 
 Another place where one encounters anti fanfic snobbery is from self-proclaimed academics. I will say right now that this is not true of everyone with an advanced degree. However, I have found that on many occasions people who have a degree, particularly in the literary arts, tend to act like they're "too good for the likes of fan fiction."
 I'm not going to try to separate the sort of things that we write from the sort of stuff sometimes written by people who are just starting out. These are often teenage girls, and they tend to place themselves in the position of the heroine. They are often just starting to find their voice, and the quality of their writing tends, overall, to be less than stellar. 
 As the author of the Fandoms and Feminism Tumblr has pointed out, many of these young writers are exploring their sexuality. While we, from our jaded adult vantage points, may find some of what they write to be cringe-worthy, we should be praising their efforts, not ridiculing them into silencing their developing voices. Their work may not be as polished as that of an adult. It may not be something that could ever earn them a living. But it does have a right to exist, and it plays an important role. 
 When it comes to adult fanfic geeks such as we here at Team Netherworld, our reasons for choosing fan fiction tend to be different. In the case of this erstwhile group, we are individuals who live with and sometimes suffer from various mental illnesses. 
To put it bluntly, this shit is catharsis. It will never sell. It will never gain a vast audience. And, as we have discovered, most people stare at it agog and say "Huh? I don't geddit."
 I personally swear to never again let anyone's belief that my tales are the crotch rot of the writing world get me down. Maybe fan fiction is the dive bar of the writing world. Dive bars have their place. Some of us don't feel at home in a high-fallutin' Martini and Sushi night spot. 

 Peace Out, 

Sunday, November 20, 2016

(Requested)Speaking Creole! Haitian Woman

Here is what a Haitian Creole dialect sounds like. I thought it might be helpful to share native speakers of different languages and dialects so writers are able to hear what they actually sound like. 


Thursday, October 27, 2016

Friendly Fill-Ins 26 October 2016

1. The first thing I check when I go online is  generally email.

2. My signature dish is don't really have one. I've been ordering from Home Chef recently. The ingredients arrive fresh and the results are good. Here's a link if you want to check it out. Even a clod like me can make tasty meals with this plan!

3. My Halloween night is usually...there's no pattern to it. I'll be working this Halloween. My son will probably keep the lights off at his place and draw the blinds and pretend there's no-one home. I was at his place last year. There were more trick or treaters than expected and I had to go out and get more candy.

4. Trick or treaters can be cute/fun, as long as they don't make trouble.


Wednesday, August 31, 2016

Get To Know The Netherworld Crew: The Real Cie

The theme for Silver Threading's Writer's Quote Wednesday Writing Challenge is Comedy. What does the above picture have to do with comedy? It doesn't, it has to do with me, The Real Cie, the butt of the Universe's cruel jokes. We'll get to that.
I created the above picture to be included in a mass email for the birthday of Jared Padalecki, the actor who plays Sam Winchester on Supernatural. Jared lives with depression, and he created the Always Keep Fighting charity to raise awareness. There's something about Jared. More on people with "something about them" later in the post.
Yes, the tattoo is the permanent kind.
Am I doing this right? I don't know. Will they like me? Probably not. A few people do, but most people don't understand where I'm coming from at all. Nor do they get my sense of humor.
In this post, I refer to myself in both first and third person. Referring to me as I am now, I always use first person. Referring to my past self or the fictionalized version of myself, I will use either first or third person. I tend not to edit posts of this nature too much, because I want to preserve the emotional rawness.
I've never fit in. I was badly bullied. I had a serious mental illness (I have three diagnoses, actually: Bipolar disorder type 2, Borderline Personality Disorder, and Obsessive-compulsive disorder) that was improperly diagnosed until I was nearly 40. There was always something different about me. People saw that and wanted to destroy it. I wasn't pretty, I was socially awkward. I tried to make people like me, but they didn't. I started self-injuring when I was in my early teens. I made my first suicide attempt at age 13 by swallowing a bottle of aspirin.
Because I was raised Catholic, I believed that committing suicide was a sin that would get you sent to hell. Because sending a person who was already suffering to hell makes a lot of sense, right? Not here to argue theology, but that idea is a crock of shit, as is the idea that people who commit suicide are "selfish" or "stupid." Suicide may be "a permanent end to a temporary problem," or it may in fact be not a permanent end to a lifelong problem. Pithy sayings don't work on serious issues.
"This is really fucking depressing, Real Cie," you're saying. "When are you going to get to the comedy part?"
The prompt mentions Robin Williams.

Mork is one of the friends I turned to when real life was too painful.
I was a writer from the time I was very young. I was precocious and learned to read at a first grade level when I was four years old. I'm not saying this to brag about how smart I was, because I don't really think I'm that smart overall. I was in the top percentile for the English category when I took my SAT's. I have some sort of gift in the English comprehension and writing areas, but I've never learned to use it in a way that appeals to most people. I'd like to thank my bipolar disorder for that.
I always had a real sense for the absurd as well. I could find bits of humor in the oddest places. Other people didn't get it. I used it to survive.
Young Me used her literary and metaphysical gifts to escape to an alternate world. Unlike the world I was living in, this world was filled with fun and friends.
I didn't know it then, but I was an empath who could pick up on other people's emotions. I wish I could have known Robin Williams in life. I think that Real Cie and Robin would have been friends, just like Cie in my stories and Mork were friends. That's what I like to think.

This became Mork and Cie's favorite band after one of Cie's few friends' older brothers played their music and Cie said "wow, who's that?"
Keep in mind that in the 1970's, there was no public Internet. Young Cie had to go into record shops and look for imported magazines to find out more about her new favorite band. She liked doing research anyway, and liked pretending to be a detective.
If you see evil rather than humor when looking at the above picture, you need to adjust your perspective. I'm still gobsmacked that anyone could have thought of these men as "evil."
Cie liked AC/DC not only for the music, but because, like her, they were outcasts and freaks who used their sense of humor both to cope and to entertain others. They didn't like people who bullied other people. There was also "something about them."
I didn't know it yet, but "something about them" means "walking wounded."

Even at ten years old, when I was watching Star Trek reruns I really resonated with the Empath character, Gem. I didn't know it yet, but it was because, like her, I take on other people's pain. I don't get physical manifestations, and, unfortunately, I can't do psychic healing on a physical level.
This plane is purgatory, and this world is in a lot of pain. I used and still use my sense of the Ridiculous to cope, and most people don't get it. I've suffered a lot of derision because of it.
I still do it because the Pissed Off Crusader for Justice in me doesn't want me to destroy who I am to please other people. I've tried it several times. I almost didn't survive. I won't do it again.
I think that many people who express themselves through comedy use comedy as a coping mechanism. Like me, they have been bullied, or they suffer with a mood disorder such as depression or bipolar disorder. Seeing the ridiculous helps us survive. Often we try to make the world a better place. Sadly, it doesn't really seem to work.
This doesn't mean we shouldn't try, though. If we make the world a somewhat better place for a few people, it's worth it.
I've got more to say, much more. But the foam mat on my bed has slipped sideways and it's really irritating me, so I need to fix it.
Did I mention that I have OCD?
I have to joke about my mental illnesses, because otherwise I'd go crazy!
I'll be here all week. Also, for the rest of my life.


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Tuesday, August 30, 2016

The Cheese Grates It: Real People Fics

I’m not in the camp that feels that writing fics involving real people makes you complete and utter scum. Obviously, one has to be more thoughtful when involving real people in their writing than they do working with fictional characters. At least I hope this would be obvious. However, the better fics involving real people are generally hyperbolic and involve a “what if” component.
For instance, I once saw a graphic where a person had listed their choices for a zombie apocalypse fic involving their favorite musicians. While I’m pretty sure Angus Young doesn’t have any medical training, I don’t think he’d be offended by being this writer’s choice for the medic character in their zombie apocalypse story.
I try to keep any fics involving a Real People Character component pretty gen and generally over the top ridiculous if I’m going to be making them public. Any AU involving more serious (generally metaphysical) thoughts I keep on the down-low.

~The Cheese Hath Grated It~

Monday, August 15, 2016

The Difference Between Confidence and Arrogance

Most of us have been hurt by arrogant people. This man's advice is wise. Arrogant people lack confidence and make up for it by behaving like bullies.


Sunday, August 7, 2016

His Jaw Dropped - Idioms - ESL British English Pronunciation

Hello, fellow creatives! The fine gentlemen in the video has plenty of interesting idioms to keep the word nerds among us happy. Check him out, and subscribe to his channel. He's a pleasant chap, and really a lot of fun to watch and listen to.

Yours in Creativity and Craziness,

Tuesday, August 2, 2016

The Cheese Grates It: Squelched Creativity

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Trouble is, every time I feel passionate about something, other people have to "should" all over it. Then my doubt causes my passion to be dulled. Any more, I tend to water down my emotions before I even begin because I expect to end up feeling disappointed.
I know I "shouldn't" care what other people think. It's not like I'm trying to become a published author at this point. The problem is, I don't know how to short-circuit a lifetime of approval seeking.


Monday, July 4, 2016


Oh, if only there were a Fukitol.
I would be at the doctor's office demanding a prescription for Fukitol.
I would buy stock in Fukitol.
I would stockpile Fukitol.
I would give glowing testimonials about how Fukitol changed my life.
I really need Fukitol!
I think Fukitol is one of those Netherworld things.
Of course, in the Netherworld, no-one needs Fukitol, because it's okay to be your authentic, whackadoodie self. That goes a long way to reducing depression.
In the third dimension, AKA "real" life, there is no Fukitol.
There are only antidepressants and antipsychotics with nasty side effects, and I can't take them because they make me even more fucked than I was before. I did not sign up for Mor-Fukd.
Antidepressants and other such pills are touted as being magic wonder drugs that will take a person from depression to farting rainbows and singing with butterflies.
My experience with one such pill had me jumping up on a counter and preaching and scaring the hell out of my son. With another, I felt like my brain had grown little hands and was trying to pick it's way out of my skull. 
Prozac was different. With Prozac, I was completely flat. I mulled over the idea of cutting my arm, not in a self-injury kind of way, but to see if I could feel anything at all.
It is so dismissive to say to a depressed (or otherwise mentally ill, or grieving, or not fitting well into life in hell) person:
"Have you considered medication?"
Fuck right off with that shit.
Most medications and I do not get along. I react badly to them.
My cousin tried every medication combination humanly possible. She still ended up committing suicide.
Add this to your list of shit not to say to people who are suffering/struggling.
"Have you considered medication?"
Bitch, I am mentally ill. I know all too well about medication, about what it's touted as doing, about what it really does, and about the fact that, for me anyway, the cure is worse than the problem.
I also know that being under constant stress and feeling that no-one will ever understand or care about or believe in you will make anyone, whether or not they are diagnosed as "mentally ill," unhappy. Chronic stress is not a good thing. Being in a constant psychic "war zone" will make anyone "crazy."
Unfortunately, one of the first things to go under circumstances like mine (working an average of 48 hours a week and, not uncommonly 60, and sometimes 72) is creativity. 
I miss telling my little tales, even if only to myself.
I miss being able to think.
I don't like being an automaton.
I have to pay the bills.
If you think $20 an hour will do that in this day and age, think again.
Women on both sides of my family live to an average age of 85. I highly doubt that will be the case with me if things keep going at this rate. Not that I'd want to if they keep going at this rate.
The magazines all glibly tell you that "talking things out with a friend" will help reduce stress.
I have no friends because I am an overworked, socially inept asshole. 
Such magazines are inevitably classist anyway. They are directed at Thin, Pretty, Middle Class, Married White Ladies with 2.5 Reasonably Well Behaved Children, who may be having a bit of a Bad Hair Day. They are not directed at someone in the working class, who is mentally ill, has no support system, and is trying to stay afloat because her adult son, who is high functioning autistic and has agoraphobia and depression, still needs her help.
So yeah--sorry if my Stinkin' Thinkin' offends y'all.
On the other hand, maybe I'm too damn tired to give a fuck.
I really need to get me some Fukitol!


Thursday, June 30, 2016

The Cheese Grates It: My So Called Life Getting in the Way of Creating

Believe it or not, all these damn self-awareness posts that I've been making lately really aren't what I enjoy doing with my time. Sometimes I need to do them to understand my own bullshit. I'm not paying anyone to be my friend for an hour a week at this point, nor am I likely to any time in the near future. So, I'm all the therapist I've got.
What I really like to do is create. But sometimes my life feels like it's been thrown into a blender on pulverize, and that's what it feels like right now. When that happens, I fear that all I'm creating is dreck. I have very little confidence in my abilities as it is, and circumstances like this tend to suck away what little confidence I do have.
I'm thinking about changing my name to Ghostbusters, by the way. Because I'm the one my employer's gonna call whenever other people on the case ain't showing up. They know they can depend on me.
I did something I'm not proud of today. I didn't answer the phone when they called. I knew they needed me to work. I'm sorry I let my patient's family down. However, I ended up working a shift I wasn't scheduled to work yesterday. I had to meet my mother for lunch today, after putting her off for the past couple weeks. I also had to go home (I was at my son's apartment) because I knew my cats were low on water.
I was tired and drained and I didn't want the added stress of saying "no." So I didn't answer the phone.
A couple of other things I've been thinking about lately.
Google Docs sucks. I hate that I can't categorize my stuff the way I like. This is one reason I have multiple blogs. It's easier for me to blog stuff and then go back and cut and paste it into the documents on my external hard drive later.
I don't have the external hard drive with me because I don't want to be hauling around my five pound hog of a laptop to my home care case. I already have my med bag, my tote bag with my lunch and other things I deem necessary, my hog of a purse, and my tech bag containing my tablet, my bluetooth keyboard, extra charger packs, and wiring. Besides, at this point, the laptop is my home computer until I can get my $700 paperweight fixed. It would be a pain in the ass to unhook all the peripherals every time.
I currently have one main story that I'm working on with Team Netherworld, but there are a few secondary stories and lots and lots and lots of proto-stories. I can't make my brain be what it isn't, and at this stage of my life, I'm not interested in trying. My brain is going to diversify.
If you read all of the stories we have out there, they have a common theme. I'm not going to pretend they don't. Most of them will never be for public consumption, but sometimes one of us shares a chapter here and there.
I put the Rattling Bones Undead Musician Magazine blog on private. I had the Encyclopedia Netherworld blog on private for a few weeks. I put Encyclopedia Netherworld back to public but I don't know if it will stay that way. Not much of anyone interacts with these blogs anyway. I was starting to feel that the creations being shared were a bit too personal.
When I write stuff like this, I'm sort of explaining things to other people. However, the main purpose is to give myself permission to be what I already am. I'm actually quite tired of apologizing to people for being what I am. I'm not holding a gun to your head and telling you to love me. However, there is no reason to be critical of me either. I don't come to your space and rip holes in everything you do. I would appreciate the same consideration.
Note: This is not directed at any one person. It's expression of frustration over repeated criticisms of my method over time by people who a) don't get it and b) don't care that they don't get it, they just want to make themselves feel important by criticizing someone who does things differently from the way they do.
Psychologically, I'm probably in a mixed state right now. I'm slightly irritable, which is making me snarky. I'm having trouble sleeping even though I'm constantly tired. I've got a pretty good "I don't give a fuck what you think of me or my writing" mood going, which tends to come with hypomania. The exhaustion and sore muscles, however, tend to be part and parcel of depression. Hence, mixed state.
Thing is, a lot of the time people come along and find me during a depressive state. They feel sorry for me and try to encourage me. Then I get into a euthymic or hypomanic state, which makes them think they succeeded. When I go into a depressive state again, they think I'm not appreciative of their help and that I'm just "not trying hard enough." 
Sometimes they leave on their own at this point, because they don't want to waste their efforts on someone who "just wants to sit around feeling sorry for themselves." Sometimes I end up getting snarky, which is something I'm not proud of, and I drive people away, including people who actually do want to help. Only recently have I been able to realize that I have a real mean streak that I've developed over the years as a defense mechanism. The problem with a mean streak is, it tends to flare up without any sort of regard for intent on the part of its target. I feel very badly that I've hurt people who were actually well-intentioned. There has to be a better way of handling things than I sometimes do.
Here's the thing: a person like me, who is badly broken but who can pass for normal, is like a broken vase that has been put back together with epoxy. The epoxy has been painted over, so the vase may not appear to be damaged. 
The person says to themselves, "well, Vase, now that I've put you back together, you're good as new. So, let's let you do what vases are supposed to do."
The person then puts water in the vase and gets pissed off when the vase springs a leak. Upon closer examination, the cracks are still there. The person throws out the vase and goes to buy a new vase.
With me, the cracks are always going to be there. I'm always going to be broken. Not everyone heals at the same rate. Some of us don't ever heal.
I'm hoping I can get back to creating soon. It's not that I'm exactly a dull subject, but I kind of like to think about things other than myself and the shitty state of the world.
The Cheese Ghostbusters Hath Grated It 

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

Words to Feed Your Soul

In fanfiction there is a difference between being a good writer and a popular writer. 
Just because you can write a well-structured story with dynamic and consistent writing and characters doesn’t mean you will be popular. And sometimes stories that have disorganized plots, mediocre writing, and/or OOC characters will be held up as the greatest things to ever exist. 
Just because your writing isn’t popular doesn’t mean you are a bad writer. Don’t ever compromise who you are, who your characters are, your plot, your writing style, anything for the sake of readership.
There are popular writers everywhere. But there are only so many good writers.
I agree with the person who said that this should apply to all writing, not only fan fiction.
I needed to hear this so much. It actually brought tears to my eyes. I like the work I create, and I try to make sure it is well constructed and interesting to read. I use writing prompts and I share my work, but it is very rare that I receive any kind of comment.
I am not a young writer. I am 51 years old. I work an average of 48 hours a week, and I try to find time to write in spite of that because, for reasons I can’t entirely explain, writing is very important to me. 
I realize that my writing will never be popular or even published. But I put my heart into it, and sometimes it hurts that no one ever even gives me a “good job.” That isn’t why I write, but it would be nice to hear it sometimes.
Again, thank you for these thoughts. What you have said is critically important.
Originally posted to Netherworld Writers' Guild

Monday, June 13, 2016

My Brain Doesn't Work Normal

Over the years, I've had a lot of well-meaning normal people tell me how to make my writing "better." What it boils down to is I'm supposed to write more like normal people and less like, well, people whose brains aren't normal. 
I've tried to do this, but it just doesn't work for me. I will always have a myriad of sub-plots. New stories can leap into my brain at the drop of the hat (or be suggested to me by a spectral friend, but that's part and parcel of a different blog.) I will always have a number of projects going at the same time.
Let's look at the spider webs above. On the surface, I can pass for "normal." I don't really raise any red flags. I'm a fairly innocuous looking person who tends to keep to myself. In my current state, it is highly unlikely that I would be put on a psych hold, even when I'm presenting as extremely depressed. I know the laws of material reality. While I know I can be paranoid, I don't believe that there's a red under my bed or a little yellow man in my head. However, I would never ridicule anyone who does live with such beliefs.
In your average conversation, if my thoughts were a spider web, they might initially appear to form your "normal" spider web. On closer examination, however, certain deviations would be observed. On being told that I should stop these deviations, I am able to do so for a while. However, my mind will eventually rebel and will go back to thinking the way it thinks, and I will go back to writing the way I write.
I am not you, Well Meaning Normal People. I am not normal. 
I have accepted that my writing will probably never achieve popularity. However, it is therapeutic for me. Now, you write your way and let me write mine. I never told you to stop writing the way you write or stop being the way you are. Why do all of you think it's okay to tell me to comply with your rules on writing, thinking, or being? Who I am, how I write and what I think isn't harming you.
I'm mentally ill, not stupid. I'm not breaking any laws. I'm just not being "normal." And guess what? I never will be. So stop trying to stuff a square peg in a round hole. I'm never going to fit. 
Either accept me the way I am, or leave me be. 

~The Cheese Hath Grated It~


I have gone underground with all of the Netherworld blogs and am considering doing so with most of the story blogs. Seeing the pageviews while never getting any comments just makes me paranoid-er.
The Crazy Creatives Cheerleading Camp blog is now open any time, not just for monthly posts. We're crazy and creative all the time!
That is all.



Tuesday, May 10, 2016

The Cheese Grates the Crazy Creatives Cheerleading Camp: Stranger Thoughts

Image by Chris Van Allsburg

Prompt Used:

Isn’t it odd that sometimes a stranger’s words mean more than those around you?

Everyone goes through it to a degree, but for people living with certain kinds of mental illness, it can be even more pronounced. I will tell it from my perspective.
I create what I think is an inspired bit of writing or artistic piece, or a blog post with fantastically fascinating information--and it's utterly ignored. If I'm hypomanic, I say, meh, who gives a shit, people have sawdust for brains if they can't see the greatness in my work. I go on and create something else, happy as a hypomanic lark, and everyone else can go fuck themselves if they are unable to get on board with this thing of beauty.
If I'm euthymic (alas, how seldom that happens) I may find myself wondering why I'm not getting any responses, but I don't really let it bother me too much. I have something to say, so I'll say it, even if the only ones listening are a bunch of lonely ghosts. Lonely ghosts need something to listen to, after all.
If I'm depressed, I start thinking "I should stop writing. Nobody cares. I just suck."
If I'm experiencing suicide ideation, I add to that "I should probably kill myself. I'm worthless."
If I'm paranoid, there's a whole 'nother level of shit that starts happening.
What this all boils down to is, why the hell do we care so much what strangers think about what we do?
Practically everyone born human has a desire for approval. If you don't get appropriate levels of attention as a child, you start to seek approval outside the family. I come from a family which was very perfectionistic, and I was an absolutely imperfect specimen. I could never do anything well enough. I began seeking approval outside the family, often from very toxic people.
The problem is, most people don't actually care, they're simply curious. After they've sated their curiosity, they move on. They're looking for the next big thing.
Any popular thing can be compared to a big banquet. Once everyone has taken a piece, the feast is over. The populace moves on, looking for a fresh feast.

The words of wisdom that we unpopular folk need to try to keep close to mind and heart are these:

"Better to write for yourself and have no public than to write for the public and have no self." --Cyril Connolly

Being popular can be a double-edged sword. People tend to say cruel things about those celebrities who somehow disappoint them. It really never surprises me when I hear about a celebrity being addicted to a substance or ending up dead from suicide or an overdose. Such levels of public scrutiny may initially feel like one has found the acceptance they were craving but often prove to be a curse rather than a blessing. Once the public appetite has been sated, they will be off looking for a fresh feast. All that may be left following their feeding frenzy is a skeleton.
Craving approval from strangers never leads to anything positive. 
If one has something they wish to create, they should create it, and the public be damned.
Create for yourself. If anyone else gets on board, great. If not, do it anyway.

~The Cheese Hath Grated It~

Wednesday, April 6, 2016

Compound Carrion: A Poem

Poem written by The Real Cie and Writing Sister Opal Zushaquon for Imaginary Garden with Real Toads and NaPoWriMo. There is no official Crazy Creatives Cheerleading Camp post this month, as we are participating in NaPoWriMo. However, you are welcome to follow all the weird and depressive poetry along the way at and

Lady in search of peppermint
And sweetmeat
Instead found eyeballs
And rattlesnake hamburger
When she followed the fireflies
To the moonlight schoolhouse
Where the supergiant throwbacks skateboard

She was seeking homemade popcorn
A slice of shadyside honeydew
A sweet morsel of honeycomb
Instead she found an overabundance
Of undercut forefingers
In the underground household
Of the underage bootstrap babysitter
And the weekend watchmaker
With his supersensitive, supersonic pacemaker
And the lifeline, lifeblood keyhole on his forehead

Somehow the sunbathing superwoman found herself in the supernatural underbelly
Behind the bookshelf in the bookstore belonging to the bookmobile bookkeeper
While looking for the washroom in the firehouse
Where she sought a ballroom friendship with the supercool fireman

Her bellbottom daydreams now in upheaval
Her dishpan hands clasp the newspaper
Where she seeks the carefree undercurrent
Along the moonbeam superhighways
Once a moonstruck firecracker
With a crush on a sweetheart schoolboy
She instead found beneath the moonlight
One too many a hookworm playboy

The afterimage of the life that could have been
Reflects mockingly in her stoplight eyeglasses
Everything has been a comedown from her tailspin pinup dreams
So she orders shortbread takeout
And climbs warlike to the housetop
Her tailcoat flapping like a skylark in the wind

On the sunroof in the sundown
She watches the watchman in the watercolor watchtower
The downbeat wastewater waterlogs the waterfowl below
She walks down to the woodshop
To say goodnight to the waxwork scarecrow
She adjusts his sunray bowtie
Before stepping onto the centercut turntable

A blowgun to the forebrain
Nothing to forewarn the foregone horseman in the forecastle foreground
On the moonlit grassland
Her foredoom was foretold
Her washrag fallen in the rainwater
Flows downstream to the uptown washhouse
Where the cardstock newsman reports as an afterthought
The death of nobody and nothing

~Cie and Opal~

This went much further than we ever imagined it would!

Prompts used:

Imaginary Garden With Real Toads

Sunday, March 6, 2016

Why Bother Writing When No One Reads What I Write?

I still go through this. Not as often as I used to, but it still happens.
I went through most of my life not being accepted. 
When I first started blogging, I figured that statistically there had to be other people like me out there.
I was both right and wrong. 
There were people who had some of the same interests. However, I was still an oddball.
A person who has never been accepted will sometimes jump through hoops to be accepted, changing everything about themselves, and still find that they aren't accepted.
It was a long, hard road discovering that if I was going to write, I had to do so for the love of what I was writing, not to try and grow an audience and certainly not to try and make people like me.
So, why put it online at all?
In case someone needs to read it.
In case someone wants to read it.
Because I fucking want to.
By the way, if you have a problem with salty language, this probably isn't the blog for you. 


Wednesday, March 2, 2016


The CCCC has been a sub-feature on the Crazy Town in Looney Land and Netherworld Writers' Guild blogs since late 2015. I felt it would be simpler if it had its own blog. I will publish reposts of past CCCC's.
The CCCC meets on the sixth of every month. If you wish to write a participating post, please share it in the comments.