The Gothic Greek Giant: An Evocative Espinela

Image by André Santana from Pixabay

I don't know if he's very Gothic, but he is large and greenish.

I saw the Gothic Greek Giant

taking giant strides cool and slow

I don't know where he wants to go

laid back, but never compliant

although he is not defiant

the giant will never conform

he doesn't need to be the norm

he just wants to do his own thing

to paint pictures or sometimes sing

or just hang out and watch a storm

~Cie~

Sandcastle Creations

Image by Marjon Besteman-Horn from Pixabay

I remember playing in the sandbox as a child

Hands digging into warm orange-golden grains

My sandcastles were, in reality

Nothing but cloddish bucket shapes

But, languishing in my imagination

I saw them as wondrous perpendicular spires

Climbing up and up to dizzy heights

Where a virtuous knight played out his heroic role

In the theatre of my mind

I couldn’t have imagined then

How pedestrian my life would become

No longer able to earn a stable income

I sit before the computer’s typewriter keyboard

Praying that the laconic moments

Will be few and far between

As I attempt to form a story

Of a dashing but broken hero

Through the curtains I see shadows of branches

~Cie~

Notes:

I chose the picture because from the back, at any rate, this is very much what I looked like as a child. There is no way I could have known what would become of me or my life. If that little girl had known what kind of worthless and hideously ugly creature she would become, she wouldn't have wanted to live.

I didn't stay cute for long. Even around six years old, it was becoming apparent that I had a terrible overbite. Two years of braces and that dreadful Martian headgear left me with a crossbite, which doesn't play a part in my appearance, but it is uncomfortable. It also left me with dead nerves in a couple of my front teeth and it couldn't close the gaps between my teeth. I ended up having to get an abscess removed, root canals, and caps on my six top front teeth to hide the remaining gaps and the fact that my left front tooth and left incisor are black from the nerve damage.

Dental veneers can hide how ugly my top front teeth are, but nothing can hide how ugly my face is as a whole, unfortunately. I am not at all a good-looking person, and in a world that is biassed towards a certain type of beauty, it has hurt me very much to be as ugly as I am.

Corrupted

Image by John Hain from Pixabay

You think yourself genuine and virtuous

A beacon of light for all the good people

Good people like you, that is

You're a real shooting star

You pride yourself on being a straight shooter

Straight from your mouth into their heart

And if someone is hurt by your callous words

Well, whose fault is that?

These special snowflakes need to toughen up

Some people have everything they need

Right from the start, pretty in a certain way

Always knowing they're wanted

For some people, it's always the edge of summer

Always hoping that this year will be the year

When everything finally changes for the better

You, amazing, wonderful, virtuous you

Dismiss these wannabe losers

With a sniff and an offhand gesture

You congratulate yourself for your ability

To agitate, to debate, to concentrate your hate

Onto the tip of your poison tongue

I'd rather go blind

Than be anything like you

For even a micro-portion of a nanosecond

You believe your vicious declarations are a gift

Truth straight from a horse's ass

To the hurting hearts of the world's outcasts

So sanctimonious, so contentious

No matter how you beautify the outside

The inside is still corrupt as a decaying casualty
 Of your insidious verbal war

When your words cause people to hate themselves

To consider suicide rather than live one more day
Among monsters such as you

I submit that you, not they
Are the failure, the loser, the washout
The unwanted, the unneeded, the parasite

Turn your eyes inside

And judge the real ugliness

That you find in your dead, putrefying soul

~Cie~

Prompts Used:

Daily Addictions (gift)

The Daily Spur (I'd Rather Go Blind)

Go Dog Go Cafe (edge of summer)

Laws of Gravity (shooting star)

Putting my Feet in the Dirt (genuine and virtuous)

Ragtag Community (agitate)

Word of the Day (gesture)

Your Daily Word Prompt (contentious)

Notes:

These words are not directed at any specific individual. They paint a composite portrait, illustrating a certain type of personality: the kind of person who believes in being harshly judgmental and "brutally honest," which, in reality, translates to: "I want a license to behave cruelly. It gives me a sadistic kick to destroy others. I act as if I'm the picture of perfection. In reality, I am covering for my own inferiority complex at the expense of vulnerable people."