I still go through this. Not as often as I used to, but it still happens.
I went through most of my life not being accepted.
When I first started blogging, I figured that statistically there had to be other people like me out there.
I was both right and wrong.
There were people who had some of the same interests. However, I was still an oddball.
A person who has never been accepted will sometimes jump through hoops to be accepted, changing everything about themselves, and still find that they aren't accepted.
It was a long, hard road discovering that if I was going to write, I had to do so for the love of what I was writing, not to try and grow an audience and certainly not to try and make people like me.
So, why put it online at all?
In case someone needs to read it.
In case someone wants to read it.
Because I fucking want to.
By the way, if you have a problem with salty language, this probably isn't the blog for you.
~Cie~
