Tuesday, May 7, 2019

Tan Renga Challenge 2019: Day 6: In Shadow


autumn moonlight--
a worm digs silently
into the chestnut.
presenting a sunny face
though my brain feels full of worms

Basho & Cie


Notes:
The Hokku (Haiku) stanza of this Tan Renga was written by Matsuo Basho. The Akegu (closing stanza) was written by me.
Matsuo Basho was born in 1644 and died 28 November 1694. As a point of coincidence, my father died on 28 November 2010.
As Chèvrefeuille explains, Basho's Haiku references his desires for a man. Basho was a Samurai, and, as with the warriors of ancient Greece, homosexuality was considered normal and acceptable. Relationships between older men and adolescent boys were also considered acceptable.
I do feel that homosexuality is normal and acceptable, but I think it is better not to have sexual relationships between adults and youth.
My portion of the poem does not refer to my sexuality. Being heterosexual, I never found myself in the position of keeping my sexuality a secret. It refers to living with mental illness in a society which stigmatizes people who struggle with depression and suicidal thoughts. 
Some people think that in this age of readily available psych meds, no-one should struggle with psychological problems. Many people do not respond well to psych meds, and not all psychological problems are chemical in nature.

Legalize It

The amazing magic mushroom

For my own part, I say "hell yes!"
My answer may lead readers to think that I must be a rabid Shroom-user, foaming at the mouth for my next trip. 
The truth is, I only used magic mushrooms once, 35 years ago. 
I am for the decriminalization of drugs. Criminalizing substances such as magic mushrooms does more harm than good. 
I am also for eradicating the private prison system. Putting non-violent offenders in jail for drug use, often for longer terms than violent criminals such as rapists and even murderers serve only benefits the corporations who own these prisons. 
Colorado legalized marijuana years ago, and it was a fantastic decision. 
Instead of buying sketchy weed from Danny Dealer or your cousin Pot Head, people can now purchase quality-controlled marijuana products from clean, regulated dispensaries, and the state collects revenue from these establishments.
Substances like marijuana and psilocybin should be treated the same way as alcohol. People need to be adults to purchase these substances, and it should be illegal to drive while under the influence.
I have never understood why either marijuana or psilocybin are categorized as a schedule I drug. Schedule I substances are those which have no medical benefits. Marijuana has ample medical benefits. I use the lowest dose edible (2.5 mg THC combined with 2.5 mg CBD) to help lower eye pressure (I have glaucoma) and to help me sleep. 
I have a lifelong history of insomnia. The low-dose edible acts as a mild sedative. I do not hallucinate or feel "high." I do not sleepwalk or have bizarre dreams as I did when taking Ambien or Lunesta. I don't feel angry for no reason as I do when taking Benadryl. 
Marijuana shrinks certain tumors, helps with nausea in chemotherapy patients, helps prevent seizures, and helps with chronic pain without the side effects of opiates. It is hardly a useless substance.
As the article linked above states, medical researchers have found psilocybin beneficial in reducing anxiety and depression in cancer patients. I worked with the elderly and hospice patients for approximately 25 years of my working life. At this point, the treatment of people at the end of life amounts to keeping them drugged so they sleep all the time. From my own experience with psilocybin, they had mild psychedelic properties. Granted, I only took a small dose. However, I was much more in control and aware of my surroundings than I had been when taking LSD.
A dose of psilocybin could allow a terminally ill patient to remain aware while reducing fear and contributing to a sense of well-being without depressing the central nervous system as severely as narcotic pain medications do.
Psilocybin is a substance with low toxicity and low harm potential. The same cannot be said for the widely prescribed and highly addictive opiates.
Legalize and study psilocybin.
Make marijuana legal on a federal level.
End the privatized prison system. 
Make medical care, including end of life care, better for patients.
Stop the stigma.
Decriminalizing drugs is not the same thing as saying it's okay to spend your life getting high. It's saying let's stop wasting taxpayer dollars and police time on non-violent drug users and instead stop the real criminals. Let us treat addiction as a psychological issue rather than a criminal act.
By the way, psilocybin has a far lower addiction potential than many legal drugs, such as benzodiazepines and opiates.

~Sly Has Spoken~

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Monday, May 6, 2019

Tan Renga Challenge 2019: Day 5: Wintry Gusts and Fresh Fish


Wintry gusts:
on the sardine still lingers
the ocean's color.
How fresh and lovely they are
When not confined to a can

Gaki & Cie


Notes:
The Hokku (Haiku) stanza of this Tan Renga was written by Akutagawa Ryunosuke a.k.a. Gaki (1 March 1892 – 24 July 1927, death by overdose of Veronal.) The Ageku or closing stanza was written by me.
One of the things I treasure about this type of poetry is the way it makes a mundane item or creature such as a sardine beautiful and precious. Some people mock minimalist forms such as Haiku/Senryu or Tanka/Tan Renga, but I find that they have a meditative quality. 
My monkey mind is far too chatty and jumpy for me to meditate very well using traditional meditation methods. Either my mind wanders off track and I get bored and antsy, or if I do manage to relax, I fall asleep. 
This type of poetry allows me to meditate. I find that engaging in the Tan Renga challenge has made me calmer overall and given me an eye of the storm to escape to although my life is very chaotic. I am extremely grateful for this gift.

WTRW: The ABCs of Rose - 3 Winks Design

WTRW: The ABCs of Rose - 3 Winks Design



I was badly bullied all the way through school. By the time I was in high school I had started fighting back with my fists, but part of me still believed that what was being said about me was true. The effects of bullying last a lifetime. I'm 54 years old now and still struggle with low self-esteem.

Thursday, May 2, 2019

Cie Sez: Popularity Does Not Equate to Writing Quality

Note: This is a direct copy of a post on my Netherworld Writers Guild Tumblr. I have provided links to all the participants.

Anonymous asked:

How to know if my story sucks? It has about 100 hits and 3 kudos and no comments. Kinda frustrating. I like the story tho. Help?!


If you like it then it doesn’t suck. Those are the rules. 

What you’re asking about isn’t about how good the story is, it’s about how popular it is. Those are two different things. Popularity comes down to the following (incomplete list)

a good, clear summary that describes the fic and lets the reader know what to expect. No typos. No grammar problems. No “I suck at summaries”

tags for the show and characters of course, but also tags for tropes that are used, genre (fluff, smut, angst, etc), episodes if it’s a post-ep, meta, timeline (if applicable) etc. Tell the people what’s in your story so that they can find it. Or avoid it if it’s not for them.

relevance to the fandom. The Silmarillion is a great work of literature, but how many Lord of the Rings fans actually read it? If you’re writing to make yourself happy, sometimes that doesn’t appeal to everyone - and that’s okay


You’re the first reader you need to please–if you like it, more will follow. :)

Try promoting it around–that always helps broadcast it to potential readers.  Doesn’t even have to be online either–was at the pet store the other day, was telling this guy I was writing original fiction, he’s kind of politely listening; tell him I do fanfiction too? YOOOO he’s suddenly interested. XD


This is the thing I struggle with the absolute most. I’m not the kind of person that other people like, and I’m rubbish at self-promotion. My brain is weird. Consequently, my writing is weird. 

Having rapid-cycling type 2 bipolar disorder, I tend to have three different approaches to the fact that my writing is not what the teeming masses want to read. Considering that the teeming masses seem to want rubbish like Twilight and its even more rubbish hellspawn, Fifty Shades of Gray, I’m rather sure I wouldn’t like any story of mine that happened to become popular.

When I’m hypomanic, I don’t give flea fart in a category five hurricane what people think of my writing. If they like it, fine. If they don’t like it, meh, whatever. I know it’s hella fucking great, or at least pretty good, or at least I liked it. That’s the only thing that matters.

When I’m euthymic, my thoughts are “if I build it and promote it, they will come. Or not. Whatever.”

When I’m depressed, my thoughts go a little bit something like this.

“I’m trash and everything I do is trash. I should stop writing and destroy everything I’ve ever written. Nobody will ever like me. I’m a thing that never should have happened. I even make my grandma sick.”

The fact of the matter is, the depressive thoughts have far less to do with the quality of my writing than they do with feeling unwanted and rejected. I was a weird kid who became a weird teenager who grew up to be a weird adult. I was badly bullied when I was younger and taken advantage of and abandoned by the kinds of soulless people who think nothing of using others and throwing them away when I became a needy adult with very low self-esteem. None of this has fuck all to do with the quality of my writing. 

One of the things writers can do is to seek out beta readers. I do offer my services as a beta reader and a reviewer, but I don’t always have time to do it. Anyone who is interested can find the information on the http://horrorharridans.blogspot.com page.

The number of comments one receives has very little to do with the quality of the work presented. Unfortunately, it often boils down to how popular the writer is. New writers tend to get few if any comments. I’ve been blogging and sharing my writing since 2006. I’ve never been popular. I was very naive when I first started and believed that the Internet would open doors to finding all kinds of friends, including other people who were Just Like Me. Instead, I learned that most people really don’t give a fuck and that nobody else is like me. 

This, however, is not an indication that your writing sucks. It’s an indication that people suck, and if you enjoy writing, you should keep doing it. 

Jimi Hendrix once said that he found that compliments distracted him from the thing that was most important: creation. 

Writers are often lonely and misunderstood people. We need to try and separate our personal need for acceptance from our reasons for writing. If we are writing in order to be accepted, we are going to fail. We need to write for the sake of the story which is asking to be told.

Wednesday, May 1, 2019

Insecure Writers' Support Group May 2019: Cie Plans Ahead

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As the sort of person who tends to fly by the seat of my pants, I like to instill some discipline into my program by participating in writing prompts. However, as I discovered this year when participating in Camp NaNoWriMo plus the NaPoWriMo and Poems in April prompts at the same time on my poetry blog, and the A to Z challenge over at Naughty Netherworld Press, too many prompts can feel more like a cluster flock than an inspiration.


This nightmare vision is a massive flock of starlings. I don't have a bird phobia, but I find this a bit unsettling. I don't like swarms of anything, and that includes people.
Camp NaNoWriMo is much more flexible than NaNoWriMo. I was using it as a tool to inspire me to pull together my first poetry book. I'm not sure it succeeded. 
NaPoWriMo's prompts are optional. One can participate in NaPoWriMo without ever using one of their prompts.
Poems in April's prompts are not flexible.
The A to Z blogging challenge doesn't have any hard and fast rules other than, you know, having your posts go in alphabetical order. The subject you choose is up to you. 
I used the A to Z challenge to introduce the bold and bawdy characters from Naughty Netherworld Press' Carnal Invasion series to the world. This was enjoyable but labor-intensive. I don't think it would be a bad thing to plan next year's A to Z Challenge this year and have at least a rough draft version of the posts ready to go for next year.
For the poetry project, I believe that next year I am going to go with Carpe Diem's Spring Kigo. This will work fine with NaPoWriMo and Camp NaNoWriMo, plus there is a feeling of continuity, and I can hone my Haiku. There are people who loathe Haiku. I am not among them.
If either the NaPoWriMo or Poems in April prompts strike my fancy, I can hammer out a bonus poem. My -666 fans will be thrilled!
I had planned to answer the Insecure Writers' Support Group question in this month's post, but I'm not going to--again. Maybe next time.

~Cie~



Tan Renga Challenge 2019: A Lonely Fire


smoldering fireplace
the sweet perfume of burned herbs
loneliness grabs my throat
Am I doomed to be alone
For all of this foolish life?

Chevrefuelle & Cie

Notes:
Chevrefuelle wrote the first stanza (the Haiku) and I wrote the second stanza (the two seven-syllable lines).