tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8427109816373145171.post6057595600600411774..comments2024-03-25T15:16:05.486-06:00Comments on Crazy Creatives Cheerleading Camp: The Cheese Grates It: The Cheesy One's (Gloomy, sorry) Holiday Message for 2017Ornery Owl of Naughty Netherworld Press and Readers Roost http://www.blogger.com/profile/07596105116325246476noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8427109816373145171.post-26771080566887167062018-01-23T09:18:26.540-07:002018-01-23T09:18:26.540-07:00Meds don't work for me at all. I have type 2 b...Meds don't work for me at all. I have type 2 bipolar disorder, and SSRI's make me manic and psychotic. Um--no thanks! With psych meds (with any meds, really) sometimes the cure is worse than the disease. I take a low dose of Lithium Orotate, which is a form of Lithium available without prescription, and a cocktail of natural supplements for the psych stuff. It helps a little and doesn't have the wicked side effects of the pharmaceutical stuff.<br />All of the pharmaceutical medications I take are for strictly physical conditions, mostly endocrine garbage.<br />If it weren't for my son, I'd be dead already. I don't see much of a future for myself at all. I really worry about what will happen to him when I'm gone. He's fairly agoraphobic. He can go out if someone is with him, but doesn't like to be out for long periods of time. We really only have each other. I have other family, but we're kind of estranged. I see my mother, more often than I care to if I'm to be honest, but our relationship is very strained.<br />My father loved the holidays. After he passed, I didn't have much use for them. I kind of like looking at all the pretty lights, but that's about all.Ornery Owl of Naughty Netherworld Press and Readers Roost https://www.blogger.com/profile/07596105116325246476noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8427109816373145171.post-32427473275711251782018-01-22T12:28:05.840-07:002018-01-22T12:28:05.840-07:00My foes are depression & anxiety. I was very g...My foes are depression & anxiety. I was very good about putting on a happy face till I was laid off, just under a year ago. Around April, I took to my bed and pretty much haven't left. I have occasional good days - but many are now spent sleeping. I'm going the med route again, but only because sleeping for 30+ hours is not doing me any good.. I'd like to be semi-human for awhile. Current meds aren't working at all.<br /><br />And you aren't alone in living for something else. I plan to kill myself at 65 (regardless of how many people don't believe me) and am only currently still alive to care for my cats. If they were gone, I would be too. Do to having friends who found bodies of loved ones, I'm a bit focused on how I will do things to result in the least trauma to others.<br /><br />I don't celebrate any holidays anymore. To me, a Christmas tree is just a symbol of the gifts which aren't under it, the reality that I have no one to celebrate with, and a mess that just needs to be cleaned up later (and I HATE cleaning). But, overall, I take a lot of joy in not getting stressed out about shopping or receiving crap gifts, or any of the other negative drama about that particular holiday!!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com